Thyroid update.

It's been about 2.5 mo since I began seeing Mark Johnson in Orem. He has me on 3 "drops"

1. For thyroid. Which, btw, he says it right where he wants it now.

2. Progesterone. WOW. What a difference that made. just a couple days after I started that I was able to "wake up" and get going.

3. A raspberry root. This one is for hormones in general.

Last week, he let me add Phosphatidyl. whatever. can't pronounce it, but it's to help stop the production of cortisol, which at this point is the last "problem" and unfortunately, goes hand in hand with thyroid. SIGH.

I am LOVING feeling better, BUT am having such a hard time with this weight that I CANNOT get off.... it has truly gotten under my skin, into my head, and makes me crazy. YET, I am, at the same time OK with who I am, more so than ever. I KNOW who I am, I KNOW what I am made of, and I know that I will continue to battle against my own body. I can be very determined, and I am still very hopeful that a remnant of what I looked like will return as my body tries to re learn what it has forgotten.

The very bright side of things is that I am now doing a whole bunch of stuff that I had really forgotten that I used to do ALL THE TIME, like:

VACUUMING. Really?

MOPPING.

LAUNDRY.

LISTS. Yes, I have even forgotten that I am very motivated and driven by LISTS.

KIDS AND CHORES. I am now right behind them, like I'd been for 18.5 yrs BEFORE this  ugly little issue... kids could not be more pleased. wink, wink.

EXERCISE. If you know me, you know this has never been an issue, and yet, as you struggle to do it, knowing how much better it makes you feel, you JUST CAN'T.

I don't " I JUST CAN'T" anything. And I just couldn't.

BUT I'M BACK. A little more so everyday, and for the first time in a very long time, I'm very hopeful that I can win the battle.

Again. If you are getting to be 40, and you've noticed a few subtle changes, things that just don't seem right, act. research. be your own advocate. Things change at 40, I wish I could say it's all thyroid, all pituitary decline, but 40 is it's own beast, things are just going to be different. I am now mid life, and everything I do to keep young at heart is hard fought.

As we approach Mother's day, I am so grateful for a Mother who showed me how to stand up, take charge, and love myself, and who gave me an almost perfect "model" of how to do it. It makes it much easier to not be so hard on myself at this time of change and trasition. It also helps that she is still present and active in my life, still giving me that lift when I need it, those words when I can't find them, and the treasured gift of knowing, STILL, that she loves me and is proud of me.